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Heresy, Inspired by “Carrie the Animal”

Last summer I met a girl named Carrie. She was manning a booth in downtown Chico, the purpose of which was to educate people on animal rights topics as well as Vegetarianism/Veganism and a handful of other worthwhile causes like Farm Sanctuary.

Carrie, if you’re reading this I realize the description I just gave of your booth is far from adequate, and for that I apologize. It’s just that it’s 1am and only minutes ago I finished a 9 mile walk. My fat behind needs to drop some lbs, and I’m in a 2 month competition with my friend John to see who can drop the most weight. I’m a bit tired. No excuse, I know. Excuses are like… well, let’s just say you are invited to tell more about the booth, and Farm Sanctuary, in the comments section if you’d like.

Since that meeting I’ve been a subscriber to Carrie’s myspace blog. A week ago Wednesday she wrote this blog post, Finding Atheism, which discusses how she’s embracing atheism after being raised a Christian. Right before she wrote that post we’d been discussing Ben Stein’s latest film. I told her that I’d continue our discussions with a response to her Atheism post, but that I’d do so here.

So now I’m working on a blog article some readers might not totally appreciate. The part some may potentially consider heretical (click for definition) has to do with some very deep “faith doubts” I’ve experienced. I plan to hold nothing back, meaning I’m not going to soften or hide some of those big, huge questions I’ve had about Christianity. Discussing one’s perceived problems with or questions regarding Christianity, dear Constant Reader, seems to bug a few peeps for some reason.

If you’re the prayin’ type, send a few up for me will ya? Then be sure to come back later this weekend.

In the meantime be sure to read Carrie’s blog post, as it’s a prerequisite for understanding the post I’m writing.

Please Vote For Heart Support

Heart Support, which is an online community support group for those struggling with various issues such as addiction, suicidal thoughts, depression, eating disorders, and other struggles, has been nominated for a Myspace Impact Award.

The winner of this award receives a sizable donation from Myspace. I’d like you to take 15 seconds of your time to go vote.

Click the graphic above or click here and vote for Heart Support.

Heart Support is a team up of several people you may already be familiar with, including XXXChurch.com and Jon Bell (for those who don’t know Jon, he’s author/pastor Rob Bell’s brother).

Vote, please!

Welcome to My Office

I’ve wanted to blog more often about something other than religious opinions and learnings. This fits that description…

My Office

Several minutes ago I took a break from working to post on a message board I frequent (seen on the screen of my laptop in the photo above). Now I’m taking a break from taking a break from working to write to you and show off my mobile office. What you see in that photo is almost all I need to make a living these days.

I love being self employed. I get to choose when and where I work. On some days I may work from home until 3am, while other times I’ll head to Starbucks or Barnes and Noble or some other wireless hotspot with my MacBook Pro in tow. My home internet account also includes free wifi access at more than 10,000 locations across the country. I make good use of it, rarely working two days in a row from the same location. Tonight just happens to find me sitting in Barnes and Noble.

A different location a day keeps the boredom away, I say.

I manage and market auto dealer websites. I’m good at what I do. When I owned porn sites I figured out how to obtain decent search engine results for the terms I was seeking. While many Internet users may not find my current subject matter as interesting as what I used to “sell”, the same concepts apply to anything I wish to market online. My current clients have been seeing very good results.

Perhaps God really CAN use all things for good?

I’ve recently been working on something that, if successful, will expand my business to the point of needing a few more employees. For now, my son’s mother works for me. Because of this, she has a nice boss that allows her to work her own hours, enabling her to spend time in my son’s classroom any time she chooses to do so. If my expansion plan comes to fruition I’m considering the idea of hiring other single mothers, granting them that same freedom.

Random Thought

I blog way too much about religious stuff here. I’m not saying I shouldn’t talk about it at all, but I should probably infuse my “ramblings” with more “fun stuff” from time to time too.

Hmmm… what should we discuss?

Like, maybe, bowel movements or something. ;)

Gary Kremen Goes Solar

I don’t think I’ve written about my friend Gary on this blog. Today you’ll meet another person from my porn-past.

Gary Kremen and Thede Loder In this photo, the man on the left is Gary Kremen. He is the founder of the online dating site Match.com, but also owned the domain name sex.com as well. At one time he was my business partner. In fact, when I was in the porn world he was the first business partner I had. We went into business together 3 years after I started in the adult business. The partnership didn’t last very long, but our friendship continues to this day.

My friendship with Gary began because he was intrigued by the porn business. He’d originally meant the “sex” domain to work hand in hand with Match.com as a sort of sex education website. Those plans changed when a con man named Stephen Cohen stole the domain from him and turned it into a porn site. Gary spent several years and millions of dollars getting the domain back. By the time it was again in his possession it was making so much money from porn advertising that he left it “as-is” and officially became a pornographer. I remember being at his 40th birthday party where his mother introduced her children to those who didn’t know them by saying, “This is my daughter the photographer, and my son the pornographer”. At the time, it was amusing.

Gary had never meant to be a pornographer. He eventually sold the sex.com domain for $14 million after being awarded a $65 million judgment against the con man who stole it from him as well as another multi-million dollar judgment against Network Solutions, the company that transferred ownership of the domain to Stephen Cohen to begin with.

This morning I read this article, talking about Gary’s latest venture: his plans to provide financing for solar energy to the masses. In the photo taken above Gary and I were discussing that very plan over dinner here in my hometown. I think it’s a great idea, and I really hope it catches on.

The gist of Gary’s plan is to make solar financing very similar to vehicle financing. Think of a car dealership: when a person finds the car they wish to buy, the dealer is able to offer financing on the spot. Gary wants his company to be THE financing option when a solar energy salesperson is speaking with a prospective client. The salesperson can offer solar energy products, and immediately set the customer up with financing through Clean Power Finance, Gary’s company.

He may be a bit ahead of his time, but I won’t be at all surprised if this latest venture is just as financially successful as his previous endeavors. You go, Gary!

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Ron Jeremy Likes Worship Music

I stumbled across this video over on Craig Gross’ blog. I gotta share it with you! Craig was traveling with Ron for the Porn Debate tour and writes:

So, we were catching up on things, sharing where we had been most recent and I mentioned that I was at a Christian conference the night before with a band. He then says….”I love that Christian Music.”

So, I had to pick up my camera and the rest is below.

We listened to the Chris Tomlin and Steve Fee albums cause I don’t have any Michael W. Smith on my Ipod or the Time Life worship album. I will try and track those down for our two debates next week. Look for Ron and I at a worship concert soon. I will make sure he stays awake.

Good stuff. And the ending is hilarious!

XXXChurch: New Site & HackFest 2008

XXXChurch.com - New Design - ScreenshotXXXCHURCH.COM SITE REDESIGN

The new xxxchurch.com site redesign has been launched. Click here to check it out. I had a blog called “the Industry” located on their site, but since I only updated it once every month or two Craig decided to simply link to this DonnysRamblings.com blog instead. Craig and I talked about having an RSS feed from here that would automatically repost articles to XXXChurch.com but I don’t see it so I guess that idea was scrapped. There are several new columns on the site written by numerous others so check it out. And leave them COMMENTS. Those of us who write really get a big kick out of your feedback. That means you’re reading. That means we’re not talking to ourselves.

HACKFEST - MONDAY, MAY 5, 2008

To explain what Hackfest is, I’ll quote Craig Gross:

Once a year we gather together and try and raise some money for the ministry. We do this by playing 100 holes of golf and none of us our golfers. Each of the staff will assemble a team. We’re playing 100 holes of golf in one day and the goal is to raise $25 a hole. You can start by sponsoring yourself at $1 a hole, that’s a $100 donation from yourself, then ask others to do the same. If that means getting 24 people to donate $1 per hole each, 5 people to donate $5 a hole, whatever… It’s up to you. You don’t have to collect the money. All you need is an address, phone or email from the person so we can contact them and collect. This is where those booklets will come in handy. ALSO, if you’re not living in the Grand Rapids area, we will fly you here, put you up and feed you.

Since I like to be flown in, put up, and fed, I’m looking for sponsors. I’m taking Craig’s advice and sponsoring myself for $1 per hole. Which means I’m invested a hundred bucks.

The goal is $25 per hole total, so I need 24 more sponsors at a buck a hole or… well, I’m sure you can do the math.

If you’d like to sponsor this hacker, please email me and let me know what address/phone number to put on file for XXXChurch to collect from later. I need your help, and so does XXXChurch.

Besides… I hear Rob Bell is going to be there. I want to golf with Rob. Really badly. And I’m not gonna stop buggin’ y’all until I’ve reached my sponsorship goal. Seriously.

“Where Have All the Leaders Gone?” - An Excerpt From Lee Iacocca’s Book

I just read this today and liked it enough to republish it here. It’s from Lee Iacocca’s book Where Have All the Leaders Gone? and was forwarded to me via email this morning.

“Am I the only guy in this country who’s fed up with what’s happening? Where the hell is our outrage? We should be screaming bloody murder. We’ve got a gang of clueless bozos steering our ship of state right over a cliff, we’ve got corporate gangsters stealing us blind, and we can’t even clean up after a hurricane much less build a hybrid car. But instead of getting mad, everyone sits around and nods their heads when the politicians say, ‘Stay the course.’

Stay the course? You’ve got to be kidding. This is America , not the damned ‘Titanic’. I’ll give you a sound bite: ‘Throw all the bums out!’

You might think I’m getting senile, that I’ve gone off my rocker, and maybe I have. But someone has to speak up. I hardly recognize this country anymore.

The most famous business leaders are not the innovators but the guys in handcuffs. While we’re fiddling in Iraq , the Middle East is burning and nobody seems to know what to do. And the press is waving ‘pom-poms’ instead of asking hard questions. That’s not the promise of the ‘America’ my parents and yours traveled across the ocean for. I’ve had enough. How about you?

I’ll go a step further. You can’t call yourself a patriot if you’re not outraged. This is a fight I’m ready and willing to have. The Biggest ‘C’ is Crisis !

Leaders are made, not born. Leadership is forged in times of crisis. It’s easy to sit there with your feet up on the desk and talk theory. Or send someone else’s kids off to war when you’ve never seen a battlefield yourself. It’s another thing to lead when your world comes tumbling down.

On September 11, 2001, we needed a strong leader more than any other time in our history. We needed a steady hand to guide us out of the ashes. A Hell of a Mess. So here’s where we stand. We’re immersed in a bloody war with no plan for winning and no plan for leaving. We’re running the biggest deficit in the history of the country. We’re losing the manufacturing edge to Asia , while our once-great companies are getting slaughtered by health care costs. Gas prices are skyrocketing, and nobody in power has a coherent energy policy. Our schools are in trouble. Our borders are like sieves. The middle class is being squeezed every which way.

These are times that cry out for leadership.

But when you look around, you’ve got to ask: ‘Where have all the leaders gone?’ Where are the curious, creative communicators? Where are the people of character, courage, conviction, omnipotence, and common sense? I may be a sucker for alliteration, but I think you get the point.

Name me a leader who has a better idea for homeland security than making us take off our shoes in airports and throw away our shampoo? We’ve spent billions of dollars building a huge new bureaucracy, and all we know how to do is react to things that have already happened.

Name me one leader who emerged from the crisis of Hurricane Katrina. Congress has yet to spend a single day evaluating the response to the hurricane, or demanding accountability for the decisions that were made in the crucial hours after the storm.

Everyone’s hunkering down, fingers crossed, hoping it doesn’t happen again. Now, that’s just crazy. Storms happen. Deal with it. Make a plan. Figure out what you’re going to do the next time.

Name me an industry leader who is thinking creatively about how we can restore our competitive edge in manufacturing. Who would have believed that there could ever be a time when ‘The Big Three’ referred to Japanese car companies? How did this happen, and more important, what are we going to do about it?

Name me a government leader who can articulate a plan for paying down the debit, or solving the energy crisis, or managing the health care problem.The silence is deafening. But these are the crises that are eating away at our country and milking the middle class dry.

I have news for the gang in Congress. We didn’t elect you to sit on your asses and do nothing and remain silent while our democracy is being hijacked and our greatness is being replaced with mediocrity.

What is everybody so afraid of? That some bonehead on Fox News will call them a name? Give me a break!

Why don’t you guys show some spine for a change?

Had Enough?

Hey, I’m not trying to be the voice of gloom and doom here. I’m trying to light a fire. I’m speaking out because I have hope I believe in America . In my lifetime I’ve had the privilege of living through some of America’s greatest moments. I’ve also experienced some of our worst crises: the ‘Great Depression’, ‘World War II’, the ‘Korean War’, the ‘Kennedy Assassination’, the ‘Vietnam War’, the 1970s oil crisis, and the struggles of recent years culminating with 9/11. If I’ve learned one thing, it’s this:

You don’t get anywhere by standing on the sidelines waiting for somebody else to take action. Whether it’s building a better car or building a better future for our children, we all have a role to play. That’s the challenge I’m raising in this book. It’s a call to ‘Action’ for people who, like me, believe in America . It’s not too late, but it’s getting pretty close. So let’s shake off the crap and go to work. Let’s tell ‘em all we’ve had ‘enough’.”

Immaturity and Being Mean

On March 24th I wrote The Lost Gospels - And a Disclaimer. I’ve been wanting to write the disclaimer you read at the bottom of that column for weeks, but my original plan was that it would be it’s own stand-alone column. That way I can link to it anytime I write about something controversial in the future.

Why do that? Because I’m the type who questions everything. And sometimes my questions make people a little uncomfortable or upset. And for some reason I kinda like making people a little upset. Why? I dunno. I just do.

But I also want it to be known that I’m in the process of learning, and will likely be in that process for a very long time. For life, most likely. And as a learner I’ve got to be ready to admit that I often misunderstand concepts and/or ideas, or that I am entirely wrong. What I spew as hard opinions today I’ll likely dismiss as the ramblings of an Immature Learner tomorrow. Kinda like a teenager, ya know?

Such may be the case with some of the contents of this blog entry as well.

Like this, for example:

It seems to me that there is much more to God than some people want to open themselves up to believe. It’s my hope to never be the type of person who thinks I have God all wrapped up in a box. I don’t think it’s possible for the creation to ever fathom even a fraction of the bigness of the Creator (thank you, Rob Bell) and I get a bit peeved when I hear someone discussing God like they have Him all figured out. Personally, I believe there are so many dimensions to God that humans don’t have a chance of getting remotely close to understanding Him. Ever.

I also feel that, while the Bible is undoubtedly a very important book, it should come secondary to spending time with God Himself. If I was in love with a beautiful women (which I am, but that’s another story) I could spend all day reading about her but I’ll never get to know her until I actually spend time with her. Knowwhatimean Vern? My single favorite part of Lee Strobel’s latest book, The Case For the Real Jesus, is when he points out that we should never make an Idol out of the Bible… it was never meant to be one. It’s a great guide, but it can’t take the place of a relationship with our Creator.

But I digress…

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In his sermon today, my Pastor put into words exactly what I’m experiencing at this point in my life: spiritual immaturity. I’m an infant. I know, I know… it’s hard to believe.  But it’s true.  ;)

Bill’s sermon discussed the love found in the 13th chapter of Paul’s letter to the Christians in Corinth and explained how such love is only possible when one has reached a deep level of spiritual maturity. Did you know that 79% of non-Christians don’t think Churches demonstrate true love for God and love for others? I wonder if that means I’m not alone as an immature Christian…

Bill pointed out that this passage clearly demonstrates that such love as this doesn’t fail. Does. Not. Fail. Which makes me wonder if I’ve ever witnessed a truly mature Christian, but that’s another topic of discussion that I’m not capable of having.

When I surrendered my life to God in September of 2006 I began envisioning a world where God’s transformation power completely changed my life, healed my relationship with my ex-wife and reunited our family. With that goal in mind I was able to treat my son’s mother with a lot of patience. The things that used to irritate me when we were married (and even after we divorced… especially after we divorced) all of a sudden were “cute” and endearing. She noticed the difference.

But when it became apparent that reconciliation is out of the question… well, those things started bugging me again. I snap at her again. I’m very short with her again. I get angry with her again.

Immaturity. Not the love of 1 Corinthians 13.

And when Bill started talking about some Christians being downright mean to others I once again found myself getting hit upside the heads with his words. As recently as the past few weeks I’ve been pretty mean to others, including former acquaintances from the porn world. My thoughts on the matter were that those people will never again be a part of my life, I no longer have to do business with them, and their thoughts don’t matter to me anymore, so why be nice?

Does anybody else see the error of my thinking? Good thing X3 didn’t take that attitude while dealing with me all those years.

So here I go, continuing the process of “growing up”. By the way things look today, that’s gonna be a very long process indeed.

April Fool’s Day: What Pranks Did YOU Pull?

Here’s what I did…

TO WENDY

My first prank began with an email I received from my son’s mother. She wanted to know if I’d bring copies of the photos I’d recently taken of our boy out by the river. They were great photos, if I do say so myself.

All morning I’d been wondering what to do to her for April Fool’s day. This was my chance.

I replied, “They were all accidentally deleted.”

“That’s lovely,” she responded.

To which I finally answered, “It is also April 1st and I’ve been wondering what my April Fools joke on you would be. Thanks for the opportunity. Yes, you can have the pics. “

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TO THE REALTOR (and my mom)

The guy I pay my rent to every month is a local Realtor. He’s a pretty good guy and knows my “story”. When I dropped off my rent check on his desk I called his voicemail and told him it was there. I also told him it would be the last rent check he’d receive from me. I asked him to give me a call back because I’d come into some money and wanted to talk about this great house on the outskirts of town I’d seen a few days ago while out walking.

When he returned my call I told him that the company who purchased my porn sites a few years back had done so in payments. I explained that I’d received the last payment today and wanted to buy the house I’d mentioned to him. Prior to the crash of the housing market, the property in question was priced at a little over a million dollars. It has now been reduced to $700k. I asked if he thought we could talk them down another $50k ’cause if so I could buy it for cash. He then explained to me that it would be a much wiser decision to purchase a less expensive house for myself and then buy a few fixer-uppers as rental properties. We talked for quite awhile, discussing property tax rates and various other things.

Finally I told him, “I didn’t expect to receive this check until the middle of the year, in June or July. But today’s April Fool’s day and it arrived early.” With that, he knew he’d been had! We both had a good laugh over it (and for the record, no such payments are ever going to be made - the sites were paid for in full when I sold them nearly a year before surrendering my life to God).

I repeated a very similar conversation with my mom. She fell for it too.

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I’d like to hear your stories, too. What did you do? Who’d you trick? What was their reaction? Comment away!