Donny’s Ramblings: Diary of a Former Porn Producer

I’ve been moping around all day feeling sorry for myself. Living alone is tough. Belinda moved in with her friend Crystal, 3 hours south of me, and she’s coming to pick up the Beagles on Monday. Then I’ll be completely alone.
My local church has a Saturday night service, followed by several Sunday [...]

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Last Friday night:
I’m leaving my best friend John’s house. In just a few hours it will be my birthday. John has given me good advice about the situation at hand.
“Why did she pick this day of all days, John?”
“Go home and forget about it. Just go to sleep or something. Forget [...]

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Today’s my 33rd birthday, and it has to be one of the worst days I’ve had in a long time. I’ll write a bit more about that in the next few days.
I turned on comment moderation because there are a handful of people who have decided it’s a good idea to post porn links [...]

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When my dad left full time ministry as a Pastor, he worked for a few years as a Correctional Officer for the California Department of Corrections. I ran across this photo late last night. I’d forgotten it existed.
Caden was 6 months old when this [...]

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click to enlarge Originally uploaded by Donny Pauling.
Tonight I’ve been going through a bunch of photos of Caden that were taken during his first year on earth. I shot several thousand photos of him. For some reason I started uploading more than 1,700 photos to Flickr tonight. [...]

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Hey everyone,
I just wanted to post a quick note to let you all know that former porn star Shelly Lubben has just re-launched her website with new design. It looks fantastic!
I highly recommend checking out her blog and registering for her discussion forum. If you’re unfamiliar with Shelley read more about her by [...]

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To be honest, I really dislike visiting someone’s blog and reading about the heartache and negativity going on in the life of the writer. Such blog entries aren’t very popular. For one thing, what can you say to a complete stranger when reading about deep emotional issues they’re facing? I know that [...]

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Today we celebrate the birth of my son. Caden won’t actually turn 7 until tomorrow morning, but his party is this afternoon.
This morning as I was preparing for the day I decided to blog a bit about what an amazing child he is and why I believe parenting is the main reason that is [...]

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…but we sure act like we do, don’t we?
Did you know that the day after Thanksgiving, Americans spent enough money on that one day alone to provide safe drinking water for the entire world?
I could list off statistic after statistic that shows how greedy we are. We consume more resources than dozens of the [...]

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Highlights and photos from last Saturday’s Porn and Pancakes event are now up on the Porn and Pancakes website. Once again, it’s just a highlight reel. You won’t see much of me speaking on it, but it’s still exciting in my opinion. There were 540 men at this particular event.
There are still [...]

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